This piece discusses my personal sex life in some detail. Family members and others who don't want to read about that, please don't read this one.
Actually, it's about finding a big, fat vein of silver in a cloud.
In recent years, as I've gotten older and my body has changed, I've been having a harder time coming. I sometimes get stuck in the pre-orgasmic "plateau" phase of sexual arousal, and it's harder than it used to be to push out of that and push my body over the cliff and into freefall. It always happens eventually -- with the help of my trusty vibrator if nothing else -- but it often takes longer than it used to, and it's rather less reliable. I never know when it's going to come easily, and when it's going to kick up a fuss.
This has been, as you might expect, a source of some irritation. For many years, coming was easy as pie for me. Given a reasonably attentive partner, I could generally come within a few minutes of feeling it on the horizon. And when I was my own partner, "a few minutes" was more like "a few seconds." If I wanted to draw a sexual experience out (alone or accompanied) and delay my orgasm to make it more intense, I had to make a conscious effort. So over the years, I got very used to being able to come more or less on demand. And when orgasms started becoming more elusive, it was a little frustrating: partly because I liked thinking of myself as easy to please, and partly for the obvious reasons.
I've come up with a number of strategies for dealing with this. Among other things, I've been exploring different kinds of sensation, re-discovering what my changing body does and doesn't like. But there's one strategy in particular that I'm finding especially compelling. And since I know I'm not the only person -- especially the only woman -- who's dealing with this situation, I thought I'd share it with the rest of the class.
It's the strategy of not worrying about it.
Thus begins my latest piece on the Blowfish Blog, Running Along the Cliff: The Plateau Phase. To find out how not worrying about coming has shifted the way I feel about sex -- and how it's opened up a huge new realm of sexual pleasures -- read the rest of the piece. (And if you feel inspired to comment here, please consider cross-posting your comment to the Blowfish Blog -- they like comments there, too.) Enjoy!